I will miss the joy of waking up after 8:30am
I will miss my afternoon naps,
I will miss watching astro on late mornings,
I will miss spending a whole day rummaging through my mom's kitchen for items to pose for my Canon,
I will miss spending money - lots of it (till I scare myself),
I will miss driving to places that are not offices,
I will miss disturbing friends who are online at work,
I will miss having a proper chinese breakfast in the morning (all the while I eat ang-moh birdie food at the office),
I will miss spending insane hours in front of the PC surfing facebook and flickr,
and I will miss not having to go to work!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Whatever it is, it's definitely not because it's that 10th time of the year again. Somehow, that familiar paranoia crept upon me like that quiet cockroach in the corner waiting to pounce on one of my limbs and frighten me out of my wits. Yes...it's that ugly feeling I get when I lodged myself somewhere in the time tunnel and get stuck for ages. How do I define a time tunnel? In a cartoonish way of explaining it would be - the passageway that throws you around through time and makes your eyes go swirly, and then regurgitates you into somewhere that is so unfamiliar.
This feeling has been clinging to me like grime - I feel uncomfortable. I want a change, but what kind change? *stares again into blank space*
I have been thinking of flipping my current routine upside down just for the sake of changing. But most of the time, it's easier said than done. Thank you Bartolomeo Cristofori for inventing the piano. At least I have temporal escapades whenever I felt like it.
Maybe I should switch jobs? Switch my address? Switch the regular Joes and Janes for a new group of Tom and Marys? Switch my hair colour?(already did that and blondes don't have all the fun) Switch my wardrobe?
!@#$%^ What am I missing?
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
..based on previous experiences..
No other half to tell me what to wear.
No other half to tell me what to wear.
I can sacrifice my long hair whenever I like or grow it back till it reaches my toes if I want it too.
My money is mine..
Have plenty of time to myself to pursue whatever and whenever I like it.
Spend almost the whole day playing the Sims 3 and dramatise their lives.
Play the guitar, and then the piano, and then the guitar, and then the piano...
Able to go out and meet different people without having a jealous partner.
Able to go out and meet different people without having them to ask me why didn't I bring my partner..
Don't have to pretend to be dumb because there's no other half to shut me up in the midst of a stimulating conversation to prove his point leaving me speechless
Wouldn't be told off by the elders if I don't know how to cook.
Inconsistency would not be rendered an evil trait.
Can hang out with the boys at work just foosballing, wii-ing , strumming or singing. (I luv y'all !!)
I can go on a holiday and not think about home for a whole week.
Can dance with anybody I want at a party.
Stay up late at night just to score a notch up on games in facebook.
Go shopping anytime and spend on anything I fancy, coz again, my money is all mine...
Available at any time for a couple of drinks or movies with friends.
Don't have to share somebody else's depression..
Feeling refreshed every time I wake up in the morning because it's a brand new day!
Have many, many goals at the same time and there's no one in the way.
Holidays are enjoyable even if I have to be at home alone - I have my otaku stuff and the TV, surf the web although there's probably no one to chat with
I have my own, special time any hour I want it.
Lucky for me I still have my great buddies around most of the time to organise makan-makan or coffee sessions
It does feel lonely at times and it sucked, but never for long!!! (Imagine being tied to someone and be left alone.......bleh...that must feel really bad.)
P/S: That said, all of the do's and don'ts above really wouldn't matter if I happen to find the right person to let me BE MYSELF - however, there's been some difficulty in meeting one such person at the right time, because - they are either always trying to control me, or they appeared at the wrong time. So, let's be single for now! :D Thank you mommy and daddy for the tireless support of your daughter as a single individual, and for reminding me that I have the total rights to my true happiness in life - I am SO GLAD I have you guys for parents :)
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Yesh, I yam waiting for the most exciting event to come this week....
p/s: You must be thinking what the...? But with the time saved by leveraging of manpower for doing such tedious/menial task (which means I don't have to do it!) I shall once again have the opportunity to reinstall all the corrupted drawing/graphics application and lolipoops shall resurrect in all of her illustration splendour and glory and once more the world shall not be deprived of another aesthetically-pleasing blog that soothes the soul of the depressed reader who may have had an atrocious day at work, and who shall again smile and laugh in joy upon the daily, weekly, or biweekly dose of my graphical entries, that induces the release of the happy endorphine that everyone should experience sporadically at any time of any calendar month where the spectacular display of positive emotion being embraced by the reader whole-heartedly is good enough a motivational tool for lolipoops to continue blogging and that is why lolipoops is definitely looking forwards to having the PC to be deconstructed and removed byte by byte before installing the newer version of OS that gives life to this very blog that rides on the newer and higher speed of online data access provided by waimeks, so begone stlimix, thou shalt not prove to be a bane to lolipoops anymore, and by ending this very long p/s allow me, first and foremost to express my deepest and most heartfelt gratitude to my little brother who has made all these reformatting and waimeks possible, I owe it all to you.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
My poor Genius pen with an old bent body with the middle cracked open is lying there almost lifeless on my tablet's pen holder, although I had changed batteries months before. No amount of shaking and knocking would bring it back to life, so here I am torturing my blog with
It's only words, and words are all I have,
to take your heart away~~
(Ok, ok!! I'd better stop before you puke from my rendition of the BeeGees)
It's SO SAD that I can't even scratch a decent line on my screen without a pen. I have not been drawing for such a long time that I'm starting to have withdrawal symptoms...want to know how I look like..........???
.......... *digs nose*
Aiyoh, can't show you lah! Coz I got no pen!
Sometimes It's just so hard for me to describe in words. It's not that I'm literally-challenged, but the whole describing thingy is exhausting at times when I can just scribble in seconds to show what I mean, and having a mouth full of metal is kind of tiring to explain something in length. This just proves that the phrase inscribed in thousands, probably millions of books, mentioned verbally or on any writable material that; A picture speaks a thousand words!
(No wonder people gawk mindlessly at abstract art - you look at it up, down, peek sideways or turn yourself upside down to just absorb and interpret it with many kinds of feelings and thoughts rushing through your neurons and you can't seem to get anything out from your mouth in the end...funny huh?)
You can't really say that a drawing of a car is not a car, but when you want to say a car, you can replace it with vehicle, transportation, roadster, your "kapchai" or whatevah and it's such a challenge to people with limited vocabulary.
(No wonder the human race can get separated by statuses! Those who puke beautiful verbs get the royal treatment!!!)
Oh well, nothing beats the simplicity of drawing.
I'm pining, man....I'm pining........